Promise Nights (The Nights Series Book 2) Page 13

  Richard chuckled. “Well I don’t know about the underemployed thing, but I’ll cop to the gossip bit. And actually the blokes are much worse than the women.”

  I rolled my eyes.

  “What?” He held his hands up.

  “You say that like it’s a total shock that men are just as gossipy as women. You’re a nice guy, but sometimes I want to slap you about the head.”

  “Why? I was being nice and saying that women aren’t the gossips you might expect.”

  I started to laugh. “Holy crap. I despair. And you don’t see that by doing that you’re reinforcing the stereotype? It’s not a compliment.”

  He stopped suddenly, as if I’d pressed pause, his hand hovering over his wineglass. He blinked once, twice and pursed his lips. “Jesus, you’re right. Fuck. You see. I said you were clever.”

  “I know I’m clever, but thank you.” I grinned.

  “Have I done that stuff before, you know, like when we were dating?” His eyes were the size of saucers, as if I were Galileo telling him the earth moved round the sun.

  I shrugged. “Maybe. Once or twice.”

  “God, I’m sorry.” I’d forgotten he could be funny. My life would be a lot easier if I’d have just been able to fall in love with him.

  “It’s fine, but now that we’re friends, I’m calling you out on that shit.”

  “Excellent,” he said, slapping his hand on the table. “Like my dating coach. Making me better for the next one, whoever that might be.” He tried to hold my stare, but I looked away. It was my own fault if he made a pass at me. I’d agreed to go out with him again, after all. Even if we’d been clear we were just friends.

  I laughed to break the tension. “Maybe. Now pour me some more wine.”

  “If you start snoring in the theater, I’m going to pretend I’m not with you.”

  “I can live with that. Besides, I’m not concerned. Bradley Cooper can normally hold my attention.” I gave him a smile and picked up my menu.

  Two weeks later, I shuffled back and forth on my barstool, then hopped off and started fiddling with it.

  “You can’t adjust the height. Here, drink this, you’ll feel better,” Haven said, setting a full glass in front of me on the breakfast bar.

  I retook my seat and gulped down half my wine. My heart pulsed in my chest, and I kept rubbing my hands up and down my jeans to wipe the sheen of sweat from them. I’d never been nervous about seeing Luke before. What if he looked at me and anything he’d felt for me had fallen away? What if he saw me and realized he didn’t find me attractive? I mean, he’d spent years not wanting me—it would be easy for him to shut those feelings off, wouldn’t it?

  Beth was peeling mushrooms, and Jake was carrying a decanter in one hand and seemed to be aimlessly wandering around with it. I couldn’t concentrate on anything in the room right now.

  A bang in the hallway sent my heart crashing out of my ribcage. It was him.

  “Hey,” he said, panting as he walked in. He bent forward, resting his hands on his knees, trying to catch his breath. He had a small backpack on and was dressed in running gear. The tips of his hair were damp with sweat, and his beautiful golden skin glowed. Had he run here?

  “You look disgusting,” Haven said.

  He looked anything but. At that moment, I’d be quite happy to lick him clean.

  “Cheers. I’ve been exercising. What’s your excuse?” he asked as he stood up straight and grinned at his sister. I let myself giggle. I might want to trail my tongue over his entire body, but he was still the man I’d been friends with my whole life. Someone who could make me laugh within seconds of arrival.

  I couldn’t tear my eyes off him. Apparently, the après exercise look suited him. His shirt clung to him, the outline of his six-pack clearly visible as he began to stretch out his quads. Seriously? Snapshots of him naked and over me, his eyes closed as he pushed into me, filtered into my brain. I turned away from him and took another gulp of wine, concentrating on the stem of the glass as I put it down.

  Out of the corner of my eye, Luke hovered in the doorway. “I’m going to take a shower, okay?” He slipped the backpack off and headed down the corridor.

  “I should hope so, Sweaty Betty,” Jake said, unscrewing a bottle of red wine.

  Had he deliberately arrived, full of testosterone, looking invincible and physically perfect? Damn him. It was all I could do not to touch the back of my hand to my forehead and full-on swoon. If he’d been trying to show me what I’d been missing, he’d done an excellent job.

  Luke

  Pleased to have an excuse to leave the kitchen, I steadied myself on the bathroom sink. I should have prepared mentally for seeing Ashleigh. She’d looked so relaxed, perched on the barstool as if it were just another Sunday dinner. Maybe it was for her. But I felt an enormous pull toward her, a keen desire to touch her, kiss her, hold her. Even though I’d not stood close to her, I could see the flush of her first glass of wine across her cheeks. My dick stirred at the image scorched across my mind. She was wearing her favorite jeans and a top I hadn’t seen before. Jesus, her ass. I turned the dial of the shower to cold—I needed to get my thoughts back into the box marked appropriate, but I wasn’t sure there was a setting for arctic.

  I showered quickly, pulled on some clothes, roughly towel-dried my hair, and went to join everyone back in the kitchen.

  Beth stood with her back to me, and I placed a hand on her arm. She turned and I kissed her on the cheek. “Hi,” I said as I accepted a beer from Jake. Ash was next. I had to greet her with a hug as I always did, but my limbs felt heavy, my joints sticky.

  “Hey you,” I said, moving toward her. She slipped off the stool and the thought of being about to touch her was almost too much. I had to suck in a breath.

  “Hey,” she replied as her hands smoothed over my shoulders and mine slid up her back. Her sweet, sexy scent surrounded me. It reminded me of home, of being happy, of summers spent beneath the magnolia trees in my parents’ gardens. I pressed my hands against her back briefly and then released her. Our bodies parted, but I felt a pull toward her when I was close to her. I wanted to keep touching her.

  Ignoring my instinct to pull her back into my arms, I strode across to Haven and placed a kiss on her cheek.

  “Did you bring the wine?” she asked.

  “Oh, yes. Here.” I grabbed the wine off the console table in the hallway.

  Get it together, Luke. You’ve know this girl your whole life. Act normal.

  “So what’s been going on?” I handed the bottle to Haven.

  “You’re the one that arrived in need of a shower. What’s going on with you?” Beth asked.

  I took a swig of my beer. “I’m training for a triathlon.”

  “What the fuck?” Jake’s exclamation was loud and clear, but I was too busy not looking at Ashleigh to hear Beth and Haven. Ashleigh stayed quiet. Normally she’d be teasing me relentlessly about an early midlife crisis or something.

  I sat on one of the barstools, leaving an empty seat between Ashleigh and me.

  “So when’s the competition?” Jake asked.

  “Not sure yet. Fiona thinks that I shouldn’t commit to a specific race until I’m a few weeks into training.”

  Haven held me with her stare. “Who’s Fiona?” she asked.

  “A girl at work who does triathlons. She’s helping me with my training as she’s really into this stuff. She’s looking at my plan.” Things had happened quickly now I had someone to give me an idea of what I should be doing. “We went running earlier in the week. She’s fucking fast. Small but deadly.” I grinned. “I need to get some new kit though. I’ll obviously need one of those suits. Whatever Fiona recommends. She really knows her stuff.”

  “Good for you, dude. I’ll come for the odd run if you like.” Jake offered.

  I nodded. “Sounds good. Fiona said that I needed to commit to training four times a week, but that’s going to go up as my fitness improves.” When I’d broke
n it down, I’d realized it was going to be quite a fair chunk of my free time, so I was going to have to fit it in where I could, which led to me running over to Sunday dinner.

  “Sounds like Fiona is taking a keen interest in your well-being,” Haven said.

  I shrugged and glanced at Ashleigh, who was staring into her wineglass as if she weren’t included in the conversation. Was she pleased that I was trying new things? Living my life? I wanted to interrogate her about her two weeks without me. Ask her if finding a place to live and starting to train for a triathlon was what she wanted. Was she happy? Had she been thinking about me?

  “What about everyone else? Saved the world yet, Jake?” I asked.

  Do you miss me like I miss you, Ashleigh?

  “That’s on the agenda for next week,” Jake replied.

  “Big news is we’re planning a trip to Chicago,” Haven said. “We’re all going.” She swept her arm around, indicating herself, Jake and Beth.

  “Yeah, you might have to actually cook the Sunday we’re away. Try not to give Ash food poisoning.” Jake said.

  “Can you believe it?” Ashleigh finally looked at me. “They’re going on holiday without us.” She tilted her head to one side and pushed out her bottom lip, as if she was almost flirting. She looked so goddamn cute. I wanted to bite that swollen bottom lip of hers.

  “I’ve said you can come,” Haven said.

  “Nah. Chicago in October?” Ashleigh scrunched up her nose. “You’ve got to be kidding me. I thought you were a gazillionaire, Jake. Can’t you take us all to Aruba?”

  Jake grinned. “Next trip.”

  I relaxed as I settled into the banter between us. It was nice. Familiar. I was happy to let the sounds of my family’s chatter surround me, rather than actively participate. I hopped off my stool and grabbed the wine from the fridge. First, I topped up Haven then rounded the counter, looking for permission to do the same for Ashleigh. She held the bottom of her glass with the flat of her hand and pushed it across the granite toward me. I tilted the bottle and placed my hand on the counter next to the glass, my fingers overlapping hers. I hadn’t planned to touch her, but I couldn’t be so close to her and not.

  I needed to feel her heat.

  Her mouth parted, and the redness in her cheeks deepened as her glance flickered from Haven to me. My chest tightened at the idea that the touch of my fingers could illicit such a reaction. I hadn’t lost her, not yet. Her glass ended up fuller than it should have been, and I moved away. I turned from the fridge to find her watching me. She looked away sharply, nodding at whatever Haven was saying. I watched the floor on the way back to my seat in an effort to cover the grin spread across my face.

  “I’m going to have to go.” I looked at my watch. “I have an early morning run booked in tomorrow.” It was almost ten and although that wasn’t late, every moment I spent out of bed from here on out made it less and less likely that I’d keep to my training plan.

  “Yeah, me too. Well, not the running thing, God forbid.”

  Ashleigh grinned at me. Over the course of the evening, we had somehow found a way to be around each other without it feeling anything but normal. I’d caught her looking at me a couple of times when she thought I wouldn’t notice. I’d seen it because I was trying to steal my own private glances. She always averted her eyes quickly.

  “Walk me to the tube?” she asked. It was our usual routine, but this time the question felt loaded. My pulse began to hammer in my neck. Time alone with her. I was desperate for it, but terrified she’d say something I didn’t want to hear. The air was thick with what we weren’t saying, and we avoided each other’s gaze as Haven ushered us both out, barely allowing us to say our goodbyes.

  “I’ll call you about training,” I called to Jake as Haven shut the door, leaving Ashleigh and I alone.

  I stared at my shoes, my hands shoved in my pockets, as we waited for the elevator. I could barely stop from reaching for her.

  “You seem good. About Emma and moving and . . .”

  I watched her as she kept her eyes fixed on the chrome doors, as if she was trying to stay in control.

  “I am good. About Emma and moving.” I tried to be as specific as I could. I wasn’t okay being without her, but I held myself back from telling her that. I didn’t want to push.

  The elevator door pinged open, and I reached inside, holding the doors for Ashleigh.

  “Emma and I should have split a long time ago. It’s not as difficult as maybe it should be. And it feels good to be moving on, trying new things.” It was true. I liked being in the new place. I found living on my own wasn’t so much of a shock as I’d thought. “The triathlon’s a good focus.”

  “It sounds like it. I’m pleased you’re . . . good,” she replied and gave me a small smile.

  I wouldn’t be good until she was mine.

  Ashleigh

  I’d wanted to have him to myself all evening and now here we were, alone, and I had to work to contain my jealousy of Fiona, to not touch him, to keep from wanting him.

  Even through my thick winter coat, I felt his hand at the small of my back as we exited the lift. I closed my eyes, trying to get a handle on myself.

  “And your new flat? Being there, right in the city center. That’s . . . different.”

  Luke nodded. “It is. But it’s good. I think you’d like it. I have an almost zero commute to work, and after the place with Emma, this feels so easy. Like it’s mine.” He words tripped into each other. “You’ll have to see it.” He sounded excited.

  “I’d like that.” I hated that I’d not seen it already. I found it difficult to comprehend that there were parts of his life that I didn’t know about. “Maybe you should have a housewarming party.”

  His shoulders dropped, and his lips pulled together tightly as if what I’d said upset him.

  “And you should host Sunday night dinner one week.”

  “Next Sunday, while that lot is in Chicago?” he asked.

  Were we going to have dinner together, alone, in his flat?

  Yes.

  We’d stopped things at the right time. We were going to make it through as friends. Our family wasn’t going to split because we’d had sex. The thought brought relief, and disappointment. Did that mean that friends were all we would ever be? I was always going to want more from him.

  “Only if you promise to cook.” I playfully poked him on the shoulder.

  We headed left toward the tube. “Only if you promise to buy me a housewarming gift. A good one.”

  I grinned at his mischievous expression. “I miss you,” I blurted out. Just as we had started to relax and tease each other, I had to add a layer of awkward. But I wanted to tell him. I wanted to know if he missed me.

  Luke rubbed his face with his hands and stared straight ahead as we continued to the tube station in silence.

  “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said it.” I wanted to rewind time.

  “Not unless it means you’re ready to give us a shot. Otherwise it feels like a head fuck.”

  I nodded. He was right. I’d asked him for this time and space, and I had to suffer the consequences.

  “I’m sorry,” I said softly.

  He nodded as if he understood that I wasn’t ready to trust his feelings just yet. I wanted to be ready. I wanted him to be ready—soon.

  Ashleigh

  For the first time in my life, I wished I had an office job. A job where I sat behind a desk and had access to the Internet. I’d been jumpy all morning—partly from all the coffee I’d been drinking, and partly because of my weird interaction with Luke. I’d told him I missed him and messed everything up. After he dropped me off at the tube station, I’d had almost no sleep. What I did have was a working knowledge of the four lawyers named Fiona at Luke’s law firm. I was pretty sure our winner was Fiona Pritchard. Her Facebook picture showed her in running gear and a number strapped to her vest. I couldn’t see any other photos of her because she’d selfishly set her privacy s
ettings to anti-stalker, but she definitely seemed the most likely candidate.

  Hearing Luke talk about another woman had properly shown me the consequences of the choice I’d made. I knew if he decided to be with someone else—Fiona or another girl—it meant that there had never really been a chance for us. Still, it didn’t mean it didn’t hurt. I’d wanted us to have some time apart for Luke to realize he couldn’t live without me because he was in love with me. I hadn’t counted on jealously obsessing over Fiona Pritchard.

  She looked more serious in her official work photograph on the firm’s website, but not unattractive. Not an obvious knockout, but then again, I wasn’t going to start throwing stones. Her firm profile said she was in Planning and Environmental. I didn’t know much about what Luke did, but I was pretty sure that meant they were in separate departments. I couldn’t decide if that was a good thing or a bad thing. Good, because they wouldn’t see much of each other, but bad because they’d be less concerned with getting involved.

  Despite the fact I’d spent half the night stalking Fiona, I hadn’t quite got my fill. I hadn’t memorized every detail of her face. She looked about the same age as Luke, but I wanted to check again. I wanted to take another look. Was she the girl who would be the one to drive the nails into the coffin of Luke and me?

  “You can take your break now if you like,” the nurse in charge said. “You go off and get yourself something to eat. You’re looking pale.”

  Food was the last thing on my mind, but I was grateful that she’d relieved me early. Just as I was leaving the hospital grounds, my phone vibrated. Haven.

  “Hey, how’re you doing?” I asked.

  “On lunch. Thinking about you. How was last night?”

  “Last night?”

  “You know, between you and Luke after you left our place? I mean, it seemed good between you guys when we were having dinner.”

  It had been good. I always enjoyed time with Luke.

  “Yeah, that’s the point though, isn’t it? We stopped things before we couldn’t go back to being friends. You said it yourself when you first found out about us—if it’s not okay between us, then you’ll be forced to choose and our family gets split up.”